i guess thats the most tempting question i want to ask these few days.

oh gosh, i have a huge crush on him for sooo long, and now the feeling is at

its strongest. oh goshhh.

what am i to do ? im lost, confused and lovesick.

he's so hot, and that i even dreamt of him last night.

gosh man. im so LOVESICK. help god !

god, i really need you now, i really need answers.

please answer my prayers, answer my questions and hope my dreams come true.

that he'll love me, and i'll love him back.

and now, looking at happy couples talking, hugging, kissing,

and even holding hands, laughing together.

especially when my friends do that.

its makes me so miserable. its makes me feel like a loser.

yes, end of the day, im the loser.

why do other people find their mr and mrs right so fast ?

or maybe just a fling ? at least they have fun.

well, me, on the other hand...

is the most pathetic human of all time.

here goes the truth.

and these apply for love.

i have never kissed a guy.

i have never hugged a guy.

and guess what,

i have never even held a guy's hand.

HOW PATHETIC IS THAT ?

i feel like such a loser.

i feel so desperate for him, i know i shouldnt be,

but i am. oh god help.

i have never told anyone about him.

except for my lovely bestfriend/wifey.

she's the only one i can trust now.

i cant really explain how i feel now,

but these two songs, maybe can describe my feelings.

(:

its hot by avril lavigne

&

clumsy by fergie

god , answer my prayers.

tell me the truth.

make my dreams, ambitions , goals and desires for him come true.

thank you.